I sort of had it in my mind that when I went to college, I would suddenly transform into a put-together young woman with a fulfilling and successful life just at her finger tips. This was so wrong, as I’m sure anyone in the entire world could point out. I’m turning 19 on Saturday (one year closer to the grave, jk) and it got me thinking about when (if?) I’m going to grow up. I mean obviously everyone does it, but I don’t understand how. Here are some things about growing up I haven’t quite come to terms with:
1. As I’m writing this, I’m sitting here in my fluffy pink bathrobe eating Lucky Charms by the fistful. It’s also two o’clock in the afternoon. I feel like this is frowned upon in Adultland, and that right there is a tragedy.
2. Remembering to buy all those things that you never remember you need until there’s none left (i.e. toilet paper).
3. Home is morphing into two different places: where I live now and where I grew up.
4. I don’t know how to dress because none of my clothes seem age-appropriate. I’m caught in a terrible mess of shiny things from Forever 21 and sweatpants but my name is also being called by the J. Crew catalog. Do they even allow pink bunny slippers in the Adult With a Capital A Club?
5. You have to be supportive of your friends even when it means that they are leaving you in order to improve their lives in the long run. This one is huge.
6. You have to do adult-y things like sign a lease so you don’t end up living in a cardboard box, have meetings with important people that directly impact your future, and make long-ass drives by yourself when you’d really rather just play I SPY from the backseat window for 8 hours instead.
7. You realize that 1) not only do you not know how to cook a proper meal with like a main dish and two sides, but 2) you don’t even have the pots or pans or ingredients you need anyways… so Easy Mac it is.
8. You can’t just stay home from your life today because you don’t feel good or you don’t want to. For some reason the world goes on, and also, even if you do stay home, Mom isn’t there to make you soup. There’s only roommates who sort of squint at you as they calculate precisely how many hours you’ve spent today watching New Girl online.
10. Learning to prioritize your life and say no when you need to. Not everything is doable, and it’s really hard/sad/annoying when you have to make compromises.
11. Recognizing that your whole life is really about you. Not in a selfish and arrogant type of way, but in the way that you are responsible for where you are and where you’re going. School is on you, work is on you, basically generally happiness is on you, too. Working with and for yourself is the only way.